Hello everyone!I know I have been a little MIA lately. I really have not been doing too much that is worthy of blogging, or too personal to want to share at this point. Life has been really good though and I am soaking up every moment I have with the ones I love. I also do not have internet (or cable, or appropriate lighting) in my new place. It is slowly coming along.
This year has been one heck of ride. It was probably the most epic year of my life so far. I am so grateful for all the lessons learned, the moments of joy, and the blessings that have filled my life. Grateful, grateful, grateful.
As this year comes to a close I took some time to reflect on what has transpired. I used Rosetta Thurman’s ten questions to help me reflect on the past year.
What I Want to Remember About 2012
- What was the most valuable lesson you learned this year?
I learned that I need to believe and trust myself more than I believe or trust other people. Or at least as much. I made a choice to come home at the end of last year partly based on a promise of friend. A part of me knew that this friend was not real good at delivering what they claim to deliver, but I wanted to believe in them and their stated belief in me so much that I ignored that inner voice that said it may not be the best choice. It turned out to not be a good decision. Although it is hard say to I regret the choice because so much good was on the other side of that darkness. And I needed to learn to trust myself and believe in my own strengths more. I did through this experience.
2. What was the biggest personal milestone you reached this year in your relationships, health, finances, education and/or lifestyle?
I feel somewhat uncomfortable disclosing this because it seems to anti-strong independent woman but it is my truth. For the first time in my adult life I am in a normal, happy, and caring relationship. And the best part is that I also showed up as myself for the first time. It’s been awesome to be liked while not pretending to be something I am not. This is a huge personal milestone for me and the result of some serious work.
3. What professional accomplishments (at work or in your business) were you most proud of this year?
I landed the job of my dreams, except I did not know I was dreaming of it. I am making more money than I expected, and I have a title that I did not expect to attain for at least couple of more years. It’s challenging and exhausting, but so exciting.
4. What was your favorite family/friends moment from 2012?
There was so many awesome moments, but I think watching my niece have a conniption about bumping into some famous person (don’t ask me while we were in NYC was fantastic. The pure excitement that filled her spirit was a joy-filled moment. Having the opportunity to spend that time with her before she went off to college was so special to me. We also went to see her very first Broadway show. A close second would be going to a live taping of Oprah’s Lifeclass with my mom.
5. What was the best book/blog/song/movie/restaurant/city/country/etc. you discovered this year?
Book: Malcolm X: A life of Reinvention by Manning Marable. I learned so much about the man that is Malcom X and about that time in history in general. It changed my thoughts about the past.
Blog: Happy Black Woman. I’ve learned so much from Rosetta about life and becoming yourself.
Song: Call Me, Maybe? By Carly Rae Jepsen. I worked Orientation this summer at a college and this songs represents the youthfulness I was surrounded by during that time. It always makes me smile to think of our Orientation Leaders, the new students and their families, and some of my colleagues during that time.
Youtuber: JarmaineTV. She is hilarious and fashionable.
What I Want to Leave Behind As I Enter 2013
- Which personal development area(s) did you make the LEAST progress on this year: health, finances, education, relationships, family, work and/or lifestyle?
I made the least progress in my finances. I am in more debt now than I was at the beginning of the year. And I was just completely disrespectful of my money in so many other ways. It was crazy.
2.What promises (to yourself or others) did you break in 2012?
I promised I would release the excessive weight I carry this year. I had many false starts but nothing really stuck. I still struggle to eat good food, and to not use it for emotional reasons. I also promised to go back to North Carolina to visit my friends and former colleague but did not make it.
3. What arguments/gossip/hurtful comments, if any, did you participate in or make this year that you wish you could take back and/or apologize for?
I got into a huge argument with one of my brothers in my father’s home in front of my nephew. It was a huge no-no and a waste of time and energy on both of our parts. It will never happen again.
4. What opportunities, if any, did you miss out on in 2012 because of fear or procrastination?
I do not believe I missed out on anything that I was meant to have in 2012. I moved through the fear so much this year.
5. What did you do in 2012, if anything, that was out of alignment with your values?
I went back one more time to an ex. It was just not worth it, and kept me tied to the past just a little longer. It was never a good situation, and continued to not be good.
Have you done a year in review? What surprised you about the previous year?
Love and light,